Well last night I was a bit depressed, Im not sure why now cause Im not depressed now, just tired from work. Any who I wrote something maybe you can call it a poem but I just hope it gives a message to someone.
Stone and Water
Today you have grown into a rock
Selfish, Single-minded, and Self Satisfing yourself
But you cant live always alone
Beaneath the sea I'll protect you from seeing the wrong path
You've grown above the sea to equal our views
The Rain raises above you but cries for you for running away
It is your mountains that have grown above the clouds
To see the light who you want to look more important to
So now we arn't equal cause you believe there can only be
One, the one who you can now only look up to
But now I cannot touch it or you.

Well I have nothing to do but complain, I guess some good news is I have more money in the bank than I suspected. I kind of feel that I can easily do my bills now, although its to late now since I forgot to pay one and they are going to force me to pay higher amounts or I get bad credit. I keep losing weight I dunno how fast I gain it cause Im almost always the same weight but in the end I find myself losing 5 pounds under 2 days.
Gaining weight is what I guess would make the pain in my chest go away. Before it was a pain near my shoulder blades but lower than that of course. Now I get a pain right in the middle of my chest to the sides where my lungs would be really weird pain, I was afraid it was my heart but it sometimes moved to the other side. I really hate sleeping its getting really annoying how I work for 8 hours and once I get home my body wants to go to bed then it works to my eyes getting heavy bahhh. I was getting really tired at 8 pm then the smell of food woke me up a bit, I didnt even eat. My mom made some weird boiled stuff, I heard her scream to my brother about she not having anything to cook since she already made everything in the week. So theres just left over chicken, steak, spaghetti, rice, pizza from friday, and a couple of things I cant remember.
Oh well, I lost my Brand New CD Ive been looking for it for umm 3 weeks I even cleaned my room 4 days ago It could only be under the bed or in a drawer. Ill have to wait till monday.

Bahhh, Im really bored. Sometimes when im bored I look at my favorites list. Which is pretty weird full of weird junk lol now I found someones journal and they seem to have been a friend of mine maybe i think im not sure. The journal is very vauge hmm well not updated much either but being vauge sucks.. no wait bahhh I know i would never put my email on here nore would I put Aim name those stupid porn IMs suck! But still curse you! who are you so ... unknown! Im 100% sure i havnt talked to this person in a long time cause i only talk to 1 or 2 people hmm well time to... interigate my buddy list!

Ive been trying to cut back on somethings in life heh mostly like playing final fantasy and maybe a big cut back cutting off music. I like the old stuff I have now so I really dont know whats knew out there and I dont really care to much now but I bet ill be one of those dumb people who will end up being the last fans and be posour like.

What I find really bad is Ive been cutting myself off what I should be doing. I think Im lacking food alot playing so much I just kind of zoned out eatting. One day my arm just went dead and I had some weird chest pains, it wasnt my usual lung pains either.

I missed seeing Nicole >< Im sorry Nicole! It would have been very nice to see you again Im very sorry. Although I should also add saying sorry to all my friends cause I havnt been on chat programs for a good while. Though even saying that Im not sure what to say I wanna delete my character on Final Fantasy to start over and make more money. I cant seem to afford a certain type of armor now lol and Im completly clueless about farming though I really cant since 4 of my characters are above the lvl of 15 none soloing lvl. Sigh its so addictive alot of hard work to be deleting doesnt sound good. I dont wanna think of it now.

Not much to say for now. I hate how this year is starting and Im going to get beat in February =\\